More Miami Heat and The Bigger Picture

After a day or two to process my team’s spectacularly, humiliating second half play in the final game of their season where they blew a 26-point lead and fell to Boston yet still got the favorable #3 seed by default, I’ve got some perspective. I read a quote by our coach, Erik Spoelstra addressing the team’s performance and the unexpected resulting favorable playoff berth.

“If you look at the big picture all of us are still feeling the second half, but the reality is you don’t get it by default. You earn it during the regular season by winning the games that you need to in a very close race. It’s been a wild regular season for us. I think we’ve grown quite a bit. Our group is very connected even though the second half went a little haywire. But I love seeing this group grow together during the regular season. We’ll take that third seed and the home court and we do feel good about that.”

I truly love and respect what he is about as a coach and a man. I was able to breathe easier about My Boyz and about myself after I read his quote. A game isn’t lost on a single last minute play that didn’t win it and a season isn’t defined by a lousy second half in the final game. The Heat played 81 previous games this season and they did win some close games they needed to win as well as lose some games they should have won. They show an unremitting willingness to take responsibility for their losses by watching film and figuring out how to respond better moving forward. I also love Miami Heat All-Star guard Dwayne Wade’s quote about losing to Boston in their final game.

“I’ve been in the league 13 years,” he said, “I’ve seen it all. It’s a good team. They beat us three times this year. That’s not our opponent the next time we step on the ball court. so it doesn’t matter.”

So let’s step back and look at MY bigger picture. I’ve been clean and sober for 19 years. I’ve had a stable work history in the same industry for the past 16 years, counting the 9 years at my present job. I’ve been in therapy for two years and some change. I’ve faced the deep unhappiness with my life and the many unhealthy self-destructive ways I developed to deal, or not deal with my unhappiness. I manage my chronic medical conditions so they don’t hinder my lifestyle or the pursuit of my goals.  I write a blog three times a week. I am of service to my community on a weekly and monthly basis. I am a good, loving parent, friend, daughter, sister and all around human being.

With reframing my life in regards to what’s coming next with the yoga teacher training, I’m fucking good. If I can build a stable work history in an industry that I kind of fell into, then I can damn sure use that same work ethic to pursue something my heart desires! I don’t have to pressure myself with exactly how it will get paid for or what the training will look like. I need to shift my focus towards trusting where God and my heart have lead me so far because it’s a damn good place.