My blog posts this week will be short and sweet. I’m feeling drained from the emotional rollercoaster of writing my first essay for scholarship submission and having it rejected. Well, not rejected, but I didn’t win the scholarship. I found out by reading the Facebook post of the woman who offered the scholarship. I guess they don’t notify us via email as the essay instructions were vague on exactly when the winner would be announced or how they’d be notified. She did post that she was blown away by the number of submissions (50) and the quality of the writing. Then in the comments, one of her followers thanked the woman and two other organizations. Before then, the donors of the scholarship were anonymous. The instructions stated the anonymous donors would only be shared with the winner. So that was a huge disappointment and let down. On top of the indescribable bedlam that is my job due to cramming 5 days of work into a 4 day work week (after the Labor Day holiday), it was just too much for me today. It was just one of them days… Drink or Bundt cake? Alcohol or sugar? Sorry, if I’m bursting anyone’s bubble about me but when I’m down and stressed out like today, my coping skills get basic! Of course with 18 years in recovery, what did you think I’d choose?
The lemon bundlet did its job and isn’t nearly as destructive as a drink would have been. I drove home and stopped off at the store for items needed to make a dip for a friend’s birthday potluck at work Friday. I got home, put away the groceries and did the dishes. I picked up Baby Bub from work at 8 and came home to tackle the FIVE (5!!!) boxes of Pampered Chef products that had to be sorted for delivery at work tomorrow… In other words, business as usual. Life goes on. Plus it was a lot of fun sorting through orders and most importantly, putting mine aside. I earned quite the haul and couldn’t resist setting up my new bamboo sink caddy since the coveting of it started me on that particular journey.
I also ended up having a funny, meaningful interaction with a Facebook friend and her friend, who is a pretty high-brow movie reviewer. In fact, he might do it professionally, they’re that well written. I wrote a review about the television series “The West Wing” because they were posting about wanting to check it out based on a video from a scene of Martin Sheen as President Bartlett putting a verbal smackdown on a right-wing talk show host. I have the series on DVD and was an avid watcher and fan back in the day. My review was well received and I think it tipped the scales because they both said they are definitely going to watch it now.
Lastly, I found something really cool and uplifting on my newsfeed this afternoon from the page of You Are Not Stuck by Becky Vollmer. This put my disappointment into perspective and made me feel instantly better about myself because today I am the reaching, the growing, the stretching, the striving. Even if I don’t get to my destination, I am the journey.